If you follow me on social media, you will probably have seen that I work out on a regular basis. It has become part of my routine and I love it but it wasn’t always that way.
At the end of 2017 – I will admit, I was unhappy. In a lot of aspects of my life but when I sat back and took a look, it all stemmed from how I felt about myself. I felt unworthy, unloved and unmotivated. No one was making me feel this way about myself except the person who mattered the most – me.
I looked in the mirror and I was ashamed of what I saw. It wasn’t just what I saw on the outside but who I saw looking back. I didn’t feel like myself, I felt defeated and I am not that person. I push and push myself because I know I can achieve more and be a stronger person but for some reason I had let her voice go quiet and instead let myself be okay with not being the person I knew I could be and wanted to be.
I finally said enough is enough and I decided to take back my life. I knew that if I felt better about myself physically, I would feel better about myself in general.
So I started. I was scared. I made excuses but I also knew that if I wanted to change how I felt, no one could make me do it but me.
I knew that I was busy (raising kids, having a business, who isn’t?), I knew getting my butt to the gym would never happen. I’d make excuses and tell myself “I’d go tomorrow” so I knew I needed accountability. I needed a little bit of hand holding to get me through the beginning stages of changing my routines.
I hired a personal trainer. The great thing about my trainer (Lindsay Hack) is that she does the training virtually. Meaning…I didn’t have to leave my house. This was a huge win for me. I didn’t have to carve out time to go somewhere, all I had to do was throw on some workout clothes and log on to my computer.
When I started, I worked out 2 times a week with her for 30 mins each time. We took it slow and she really evaluated what my body could do. Over time we increased the level of intensity as my body could handle it as well as we added cardio on days I didn’t see her. Now just over a year later…I work out with her 4 times a week. I am crushing my goals and my body is doing things I NEVER thought I’d be able to do. The thing now is that my body craves the movement. It craves the sweat. When I can’t work out…I miss it, so much. I actually get very frustrated that I can’t work out and that to me is such a change in mentality but also in realizing how when I move my body and continue to get stronger, it makes me feel incredible.
I no longer feel unworthy, unloved or unmotivated instead I feel like I can take on anything that is thrown at me because I know that I am PHYSICALLY strong now and that makes me also feel MENTALLY strong.
I am back to believing in myself and pushing myself to continue to be the best I can be for those in my life and for my business. I am putting myself out there, out of my comfort zone because I finally feel good about who I am and what I can do.
It might seem funny to you that moving your body on a regular basis could have such an impact on your life but I am telling you – I know that if I hadn’t made this choice, I would not be where I am today in my business. I needed that confidence in myself and when you believe in yourself, the sky is the limit.